I was standing with the rest of the congregation singing songs of praise, and as I sang I looked up at the worship leader Andy, and then at the people around me and I saw how they all, like me, were filled with so much awe and wonder and hope and joy in God and His Mighty Love for them and God really began to speak to me “If you stay here in Austin, it will be good for you, you will be able to continue to enjoy the blessings of this amazing church and the close friendships w/the ladies in your community group, and the connections you are making to the film world here, yes, it will be really good for you, but it will do nothing for your family who still doesn’t know this awe and wonder and hope and joy in My Love. What’s it going to be? Who’s Kingdom do you want to build? Yours and stay here or Mine and follow me back to Boise to share the Love that I’ve shown you with your family. And so with tears rushing down my face I said “Your’s Lord, I will follow You anywhere and I will lay all these blessings that You have given me here down and trust You.”
That was almost two months ago. Now it is less than a week til I actually leave Austin and follow the Lord back to Boise. Yes, in some people’s eyes it may appear foolish for me to be giving up all these opportunities here and go somewhere where I may not have the same opportunities and connections to the film world. It may seem to some as foolishness to be walking away from such an amazing life here. And it would be foolishness if I was building my Kingdom. If I was truly seeking after “The American Dream” then yes, to leave all that I have here behind and go home to Boise, Idaho would be absolutely stupid. But I am NOT chasing The American Dream…The Dream I am chasing is much larger than that, it’s the Dream and Reality of a new heaven and a new earth. The day is coming closer and closer as each day passes by and that day, that Dream is worth everything I have. I long for the day when I will be able to see Jesus face to face, to be forever in the Presence of Him who loves me beyond anything I will ever, as long as Eternity lasts, fully grasp.
This season in Austin has been the most amazing season of my life! Last year at this time of the year I was barely hanging on, I was trying to put one foot in front of the other, cuz my foundation had been destroyed, my world had been nearly shattered and my faith had been greatly damaged. But God is FAITHFUL and God is GOOD. His love is relentless and He has passionately loved me since before the foundations of the world. And He, in His faithfulness and goodness let my foundation be destroyed so that He could rebuild my foundation on the Mighty Rock of His Love.
So come Friday, I will be headed out of Austin, with my mom on a nine day drive back to Idaho. I go trusting God to be the God that makes ALL THINGS possible! Trusting that I was at one time darkness but I an NOW light! I will be a light to my family and I am praying that they will see my good works and glorify my Father in Heaven (Matthew 5:15-16)
Check back to hear the stories as they unfold, to all of my friends and Family in Austin, THANK YOU! I love you dearly and will be forever grateful for the ways God has used you to help build me up and prepare me for this journey. For my other friends who are checking in as well, thank you too, for your part in my life, for sharing your life with me!
To Him, be the Glory and Praise Today and forever,
Em
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